Letting Go & Letting God
Today marks something hurt & the beginning of me.
It's been 2 years getting close with someone I was hoping for, but on the other hand I know that he becomes my idol so far I knew him. We were close without any commitment, I don't know since then I keep asking him about commitment and maybe it bothered him and he keeps silent all the time till I write this post.
On the other hand I'm hurt, I don't have any sight instead where God will lead me. I feel that I lost the half of me, but on the other hand I know God is working hard to shape me to His directions. And He reminded me through Samuel "it's good for whatever He does". I think I've tried my best to keep this relationship. I try to be a better version, but I can't control something, I can't control someone's heart, whatever he did to me I think it's just how God wants me to grow.
I'm sorry Lord for always keep saying I hate Your ways. Please help me Lord the unbelief to rest in You, to rest in Your ways for I know whatever You have in store is good for me.
Amen
17 Oct 2022
