Overcome Insecurity

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...........And who I serve to?

Have you ever felt every after strolling your instagram feeds become so insecure over yourself? You'll see that most of perfect people inundated on your instagram; already established, going aboard every vacation, running a successful company, having a romantic anniversary with their family & child, and you are feeling a step backward among your friends. Honestly, I did, and it happened every time.

As insecurity becomes main issues that haunted me almost everyday; Comparing Appearances, Fame & Recognition, Achievements become the most influential factors that I'm trying to dealing with e.v.e.r.y.d.a.y. here I would like to share several practices to shift my mindset.

1. KNOWING YOUR IDENTITY

The most important thing is first you have to know your "true" identity here.

First of all, we have to realize who we are; we are God's precious children, regardless of who we are, what we have done, and how or appearance is .

Because our value & identification come from Him, and we are not labelled by the things we have done in this world.

We are not created for own personal purpose, we are here created to one purpose --- for God's pleasure, despite in different way.

We have to value our self based on God's view on us. When we focus on pleasing God through your works, it will make us calmer; because we know who we serve. If you just like me in the past that doubt who you are, and feeling unworthy, these words below what God is speaking forward to you about your identity right now

I am the righteousness of God through Christ Jesus (2 Cor. 5:21).

I am a child of God (John 1 :1 2).

I am a slave of righteousness (Romans 6:18).

I am chosen and appointed by Christ to bear his fruit (John 1 5:1 6).

I am a joint-heir with Christ, sharing His inheritance with him (Romans 8:17).

I am joined to the Lord and am one spirit with Him (1 Cor. 6:17).

I am a new creation (2 Cor.5:17).

I am reconciled to God and am a minister of reconciliation (2 Cor. 5:1 8,19).

I am chosen of God, holy, and dearly loved (Colossians 3:1 2).

I am a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for God's own possession to proclaim the excellencies of Him (1 Peter 2:9,10).

I am an alien and stranger to this world in which I temporarily live (1 Peter 2:1 1).

I am seated with Christ in the heavenly realm (Ephesians 2:6).

I am an enemy of the devil (1 Peter 5:8).

I am born of God and the evil one cannot touch me (1 John 5:1 8).

I am not in a losing battle, the Lord shall fight for me and I shall hold my peace (Exodus 1 4:14).

I am more than a conqueror through Christ Jesus (Romans 8:37).

I am not weak, for the Lord gives strength to His people (Psalm 29: 1 1).

I am not bound, for the Son has set me free (John 8:36). I am favored, not cursed (Proverbs 8:35).

I am a success, not a failure (Joshua 1 :8).

I am a blessing, not a burden (Genesis 22:17-18).

I am the light of the world (Matthew 5:14).

I am not of those that shrink back (Hebrews 10:39).

I am the head, not the tail (Deut. 28: 1 3).

I am above, not beneath (Deut. 28: 1 3).

I am the salt of the earth (Matthew 5:1 3).

I am fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 1 39: 14).

I am the apple of God's eye (Deut. 32:10).

I am a lender, not a borrower (Deut. 1 5:6).

I am fruitful, not barren (2 Peter 1 :8; Exodus 23:26).

I am a victor, not a victim (1 John 5:4).

I am blessed in everything I put my hand to (Deut. 28:8).

I am a child of joy, not sorrow (Isaiah 61 :3).

I am a divine project, not an abandoned one (Philippians 1 :6).

I am blessed coming in and blessed going out (Deut. 28:6).

I am blessed in the city and blessed in the country (Deut. 28:3)

I am a child of destiny, not of accident (Jer. 1 :5).

I am like Christ in this world (1 John 4:17).

2. DON'T COMPARE

What can be compared between bird & fish? Or maybe between glass and plate? They are different from the way they are used, their function, or the way they live. You cannot say that the birds are more unique, smart or important compared to fishes and also you cannot say that the glass is more functional compared to plate; as they are designed to different function.

 If we ever realized that, we should be more aware that we all are unique, and no man like us.

I used to think that my friends who came from medicine major are smarter than me, or maybe some friends who now are sitting in the country ministry with an "important & high" position are much more better than me.

God created us to fulfill each element of His purpose. And no man ever like you and me, and only you who can fulfill God's purpose which has been designed for you.

I used to think that the world was running by the works of human itself. I'm so amazed how people ever that smart to create cars, airplane, or discovering the island or medicine.

But God reminded me through my colleague at office that every wisdom comes from above. Imagine that if all the people were a doctor, so who would run a school to teach the generation?  or who would clean the school or hospital if there were no office boy at all?

That's why God gives us different talent in order that we can complement each other. We are not a mistake. God created every person to be a "head" in different way. But it's our choice to hone the skill God gave us.

And what's more important is in our little works, God is still glorified.   

3. HIS TIME NOT YOURS

I have just knew in my 23rd age becomes the most crucial period; after graduating some of our friends have settled in corporate company with high salaries and good position. Some of them have succeed in running their own business, while sometimes I'm feelin still stuck in this stage, my business is still not yet established, sometimes I'm afraid can it be bigger someday? I have felt that I have been working so hard but there is no satisfying result.

 BUTTTTTTTTTTTT

I have seen and become the witness of how my neighbor can be something from nothing. She is now about 35/40 years. She divorced with her husband around 10 years ago because of domestic abuse or family violence that made her became a single parent. She did not have any degree to apply to company so she did anything to support her child; selling the market snacks, it sold really cheap but she had to rent a house and pay the school fee alone. Time by time, she married with a man with no purpose either (I mean here, the man is not established yet) but then God can change her life. As her ups-and-downs she has been through, now she is currently running nasi padang restaurant with big income a day. She now has a car, her own house in by the age at 40.

It realized me that we have our own time zone. Life is not a race. Sometimes our friends have been a step forward from us but it's okay, just focus on the path that God has placed you; be something that God has planned for you, and God will fulfill it in His time.

Maybe we can see that our friends' life seem normal, without any struggling, but you still question your condition. The storms seem not over yet from your life, you are in your lowest point of your life.

But you know, I learn a lot from what I've been through that everyone's trial is different, and God concern more on shaping & preparing our personality and characters through the trials.

And when we have truly surrendered, Go will finish the rest.

Put your target in His time, and He definitely makes it perfect in His timing.

And in the end who I serve to? If we know exactly who we serve to, we will do it with all our heart. And I believe whatever our calling, God will take attention to even the smallest work of us. 

Amen

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