Jesus-Freak or Religion-Freak?

Some of friends think that I'm too strictly to religion, but I guess I'm not. I used to question myself that what if the Lord I think a whole time was actually a wrong God? Because I did not live in that era, how can I prove that Bible was not corrupted because it existed more than 2000 years ago?

But then I ask my heart in silence;

Can I leave Jesus?

And it comes out that it's not about Christian nor Catholic, it's not about religion at all.

How can I leave someone that I belong to?
How can I leave someone if He is the only way to home?

There is something in my heart that I'm longing to, but I don't know exactly what it is.

I'm insecure; I'm anxious; I'm depressed; I'm in a mess, but then I find a comfort in Him, how can I leave someone if He is the only comforter & peace-giver for me?

I'm feeling empty, but then I become whole in Him, how can I leave Him if my truly identity rests in Him?


Whose eyes need to see directly if the heart has been experiencing His pure love,
Nor I need to prove whether the Bible is right or wrong, if I know the Bible is Him; He is the Bible itself.

and

I cannot avoid such a pure love He give me which I never experienced before,

so I come to a point; Jesus is my heart's desire called a home.